Sunday, June 30, 2013

A TIME Perfect


We all wait for a perfect time to come. A perfect time to say ‘I x you’. X can be anything from love, Miss to even Hate. A perfect weekend to visit friends place. A perfect time to call home. A perfect night for drive with someone special. A perfect evening to stroll alone. A perfect rain to get wet. A perfect radio song. A perfect movie worth 500 bucks. A perfect gift for someone or by someone. A perfect moment to say Sorry. A perfect cocktail, perfect job, perfect holidays or even a perfect deal to order Pizza.

Life is not that short, waiting for correct time is inevitable but what about the perfect timing? We want to play, dance, swim, sing but I do not get time; We want to sit ideal, call someone without reason, watch a video on you tube but no time. Why? Because we are waiting for the perfect time. Going on a holiday is a task, getting a break from work is a task, wishing someone on his/her birthday, anniversary is a task because we always look for a time which is perfect in a sense that the corresponding task can be accomplished.

Probably our inner self is more of a government bureaucratic system and mind is the miserable ‘The Prime Minster’ who has so much to do but no time PERFECT. With Bits, Bytes, Mega bytes, Giga, Tera, Kera, and Mera bytes every aspect of life is data that folds and unfolds at all time but perfect time. Perfect time may be a concept but life is a virtue. Again it (LIFE) is not that short to leave it on itself. Wait for a correct time but Prefect time !!! Really ?

Sunday, December 11, 2011

UnSolving Life.!!


Probably my friend was right when he said that Life is a Puzzle. Solution may vary from person to person and time-to-time however Life/puzzle remains unanswered since time immemorial. The false dichotomy of life lays here, every theory, be it traditional or modern suggests golden rules for beautiful balanced life but hardly anyone has incorporated those so-called valuable guidelines. Pundits say life is about means; take care of present, future will take its care. But how practical or easy is this for us? Watching a 3-hour movie we can definitely feel the same, however can this be our Mantra for life outside theater? Sometimes I ask myself is Life really a stage? Or is it just another stupid theory by a learned man so that people can think and believe what they want to believe. Actually it is quite easy and comfortable to dance at the tunes of complexities of your life and say that I am just performing the play directed by God. Harsh reality is we are so more drenched and involved in puzzle that we rarely seek solution. We just pass from one path to another. From school to college to relationship to family we are always answerable to some one. Where is our own existence? When are we free? What purpose we are serving?
The other day I asked myself what is the true purpose of me being here. What is reality? You reading this is a reality, but is their any bigger picture? I mean, is MAN really the end of universe or we also just think and behave in an internal frame of reference, controlled by someone. I am still Unsolving Life…..Aren’t you ???

Friday, September 16, 2011

And then it was Trekking :)

It was 00.30 hrs on 10th October 2011 when we started our journey. We board a roadways bus to Rishikesh from where the next bus was scheduled at 4 o’ clock in the morning. When roads are empty and Sky is dark Roadways journey is a different experience altogether. We reached Rishikesh by 3 and at once we decided to use 1 hour and without any second thought we board an auto to Ram Jhula. It was almost a full moon night and standing in mid of Ram Jhula it appeared for once that moon has come down and holy Ganga has embraced moon in her. It was only some time later when I realized that it was the reflection of moon in flowing Ganga.

We quickly returned from Ram Jhula and started our journey to Devariya Taal. It was the time when MBA come advantageous, as we all were still very fresh at 6 in the morning and was able to enjoy the scenic beauty outside. However after some time we all were dozing and then I realized that it was 9 in the morning, which was the usual time for our lectures.
Our destination was just 250 kms apart and we were expected to reach there by 3 in afternoon but then Nature had some other plans for us. It was 11 in the morning when we encountered first landslide, an hour passed and our bus was at same position. Somehow we managed to pass out but it was only 1 when we encountered second landslide. This time it was a huge one and for many of us it was the first live experience. It occurred just 20 kms before DevPrayag. The place where we were standing provided us a complete panoramic and picturesque view of valley, river surrounded by mountains on both sides, to say the least I was in love with Shivaliks then and there only.

After lunch we started our journey again and finally managed to reach Okhi Math, it was already 8 in the night and for once trekking appeared infeasible still we gamble on nature and decided if rain permits we will trek early morning next day. We were tiring but excited, exhausted by journey but rejuvenated by nature, hungry by stomach but greedy by heart, we all had the cup of tea in our front and at the same time we all knew it is worthless if are not able to drink that. That time we only had one thing with us HOPE, and believe me Hope can keep you alive, can act as catalyst and this was exactly what happened, our hope provided us the necessary zeal and enthusiasm and by God grace it didn’t rain next morning.

to be continued

Sunday, August 14, 2011

20 Days and Beyond..!!!!

Twinkling stars in the sky,
Why I am feeling shy
Four weeks gone,
I should better know, now I am not alone.
Some days before strangers were my world,
Now friends are the buzzwords
.


I landed up here with aspirations in my heart and dreams in my eyes. Initially I was alone then I got some shoulders to bank upon. These shoulders continuously realize me of my graduation life where I discovered some strong and soft shoulders, those are always present for me. When I see around I can name some ‘FRIENDS’, not only I can ‘RELY’ but also I can ‘TRUST’, still there is a touch of uneasiness in the air. This happens, may be in the transition when people perceive you and when there is a clash between your actual inner-self and the personality that is being outcast. Anyways this transition won’t last forever, as you cannot always be what you pretend to be.

Twenty days past and it is still Grey to me that what MBA is all about I hope I will get an answer by the time I would be an MBA. Someone said MBA is all about planning, what I felt is that MBA is all about discussion. I have seen faces just discussing, discussing entire night, discussing in class, discussing in Mess, even in Bathroom. Sometime even they are not sure what they are discussing about but then it happens with all INDIANS, it’s OK as they are ONLY discussing. I have also discussed, discussed in lengths. It might be due to ample opportunities and culture at IIT that people do discuss a lot of things, from Social cause (imparting education to security guards) to Political cause (who should be IIT’s new director).
My soul is somewhat settled in hostel now and everyday is a new experience for me, everyday I unlearn something and some new things are imprinted in my mind. The entire journey started with small believes and believe me BELIEVE is the word I am carrying forward with me, everyday every night and every moment.


Ye shuruati pagg hai antim padav ke aur,
kabhi milegi chaiye to kabhi badal ghanghor.
Aaya the yahan; matr ek VISHWAS ke sath,
aur ab sunhara lag rha hai hatho me dosto ka hath.
Mehtwakansha hai kuch kar dekhane ke,
Aasha hai saafal ho jane ke.
Dekha ek khyab tha, panchi ban udd jane ka,
aaj mann hua khyab ko haqiqat banane ka.
aaj mann hua khyab ko haqiqat banane ka..!!!



Thursday, July 21, 2011

Feeling Before First Class

Today if everything goes fine I would be attending my first MBA class. The day, for which I waited for so long, the day I have dreamed of in my sleeps, the day I have experienced through the eyes of my friends. Looking back I realize I haven’t told anyone why I want to do an MBA though I have contemplated several nights thinking of this answer however when I found one I didn’t get a chance to speak of my mind, but I have decided this time I won’t lie, may be because this time nothing is at stake. At least for once in coming two years I will tell my professors the rationale of me doing MBA. Like every student I have my expectation, I have my aspirations, I want to live again, I want to be free again. My experienced friends told me MBA is very unlike Engineering where you meet people as strangers and took them as friends. Here people come mature and its ‘I’ that precede ‘WE’, it’s ‘ME’ that precede ‘US’.



Two days is very little time to understand and know people specially for people like me who disagree with the statement that “First Impression is The Last Impression”, and going by the experience of last two days it will to be too early and too naive to comment about others. Three things that I want to take from my coming stay at IIT would be Friends, average level in all sports and Placement (in given order only as someone has rightly said that our friendship will outlast our fame). I am still somewhat jittery writing about my aspirations and expectations may be because I am still confused about what exactly is MBA and why I am here. So its better I should end it here. Good Night.!!!!

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Seating alone........

Seating alone in a gusty night,
With stars shinning all bright.
I asked myself what I am searching for?
Stars are there; is this moon I am looking for?

Peeping through my window, pushing curtain aside,
I feel the blowing wind beside,
Breeze was cool enough to make oneself mad,
But I guess it was Rain that I was missing bad.

Looking around in the lonely skies,
The serenity captured in my eyes.
I could see the firefly twinkling, bees whispering too,
However, I felt it was the Silence I was listening to.

Cloud disappeared and out come the Sun fresh
Startled, I stood up from my window desk
I was able to see my life looking back,
May be it was the future that I was looking at.
May be it was the future that I was looking at.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Back to Life

It’s vacation time, remember when we were kids our parents used to take us somewhere during June-July and after coming back we used to miss the place and slowly we used to come BACK to LIFE.
Well I still remember it was 2 A.M in the morning and I was not able to sleep, twisting and turning in my bed I was only thinking about my upcoming trip to Valley. I had to wake up at 4 to pick my friend from Railway station; he was coming from Jammu just to join us. Despite trying hard I barely managed to get my eyes of. His train arrived at 4.30 and we were back home at 5. We still had 45 minutes, as our Cab was scheduled to arrive at 5.45. We grab a cup of tea and do some chit chatting, Cab arrived at 6.15 and after picking Ankur and Rahul we started our journey, journey to Rishikesh and Mussoorie.
Till two days back I always had a grudge to no one but myself that in spite of born and brought up in Saharanpur I have never been to Dehradoon and Mussoorie. As soon as I returned home from Bangalore I had one thing in my mind that these vacations I have to visit these two places, I don’t know if I was so adamant or it was sheer desperation that I was ready to visit these places alone also (May be I wouldn’t have done this, still this thought touched my mind once). Few days back I had a routine visit to my school friend Rahul where plan was finalized, and after initial set of differences about places Rishikesh and Mussoorie were stamped, we contacted Lucky (school friend) and he agreed. Bingo I was so happy, we all agreed to back a cab down there so that we would be at our ease. We booked the Cab and just one day before I came to know that Ankur is also in Saharanpur. In no time he was persuaded to join us.
We even hadn’t started and clouds surrounded us, followed by tornado and rain. We felt cheated and started thinking about options as Rafting appeared impossible in that conditions. It was 10 in the morning and we were at Haridwar, it was still raining, we called some people in Rishikesh and got confirm news that Rafts are going up and we can do rafting though from Brahmpuri (10 Km stretch) only.
We felt relived, if not delighted, as something is always better than nothing. I also knew that my friends have never done rafting before so they will enjoy the most be it from Brahmpuri or Shivpuri. After breaking our fast we reached Rishikesh around 11 and after initial enquiries and bar gaining we finalized a deal with Exotic Himalayas for Rs 350 per person (if we are only 4 people) or Rs 300 per person (if they manage to get any more client). Fortunately they didn’t managed to get any client and we started at 1.30 from Brahmpuri. It was a repeat for me still I was enjoying each and every notch of rafting as someone has said, “human heart is pleased more with company than places and things”. We crossed three rapids in between, jumped from 30 ft high cliff, and guides also flipped our Raft upside down in between, this was certainly amazing with Rahul and Lucky stuck under the Raft, Ankur and me were far away from Raft in mid of Ganga, Ankur feared initially but he quickly realized that he can’t drown with life jacket, he quickly gain his senses and started to feel the water and People around and on Lakshman Jhula were thinking as some incident has happened. We ended our rafting at Lakshman Jhula.
It was 4.30 by then and without wasting any more time we quickly started for Mussoorie, in between we had snacks at KFC – Dehradoon. We reached Mussoorie at 7 in the evening and sooner we realized that all the Hotels were jam-packed, we managed to get a decent enough room by 8.30. We roamed at Mall Road; truly speaking I didn’t like it much. It was over crowded, I had a different picture of Hill Stations in my mind where there are less people and more trees, where people come far away from intricacies of life to relax, where people prefer silence and it is only nature that talks and only wind that shouts, where people feel the weather and leave themselves free, where people do not plan any activities for enjoyment still they feel occupied. Anyways we got our dinner packed and left for room around 11. It felt good to be in that room, I loved the fool moon night and I loved the way clouds were encompassing that moon, it was a like a turf going on and on between dark clouds and lovely moon light. I cannot say who was defeated but certainly I felt winner. However icing on the cake was the view from our balcony, we could see entire valley and Dehradoon looked mesmerizing in lights. It was like seating in a private auditorium and musicians playing for you. I felt trapped in the beauty and listened the silence till 3 in the morning.
Next morning we wake up at 8 and without wasting the time on bathing etc we left the Hotel and had quick breakfast. We planned to visit Gun Hill by trolley but there was 3 hours waiting time for that. We dropped the plan and started for Campty Water Fall at 1 in afternoon. Just 2 kms away from destination we were stuck in jam, nearly 800 vehicles were already parked in and around Campty fall area. We left the cab and started to walk. We reached Campty, put our camera and cell phones in Locker and went below the fall.
I was un-reactive for initial 5 minutes then I realized that I do not like it; there were around 300 people in the small pool meant only for 50 people. No later than 10 minutes I left the pool, I took the camera out and took some shots of my friends who said they were enjoying there. Still I cannot fathom that fact. We left Campty around 3 and were back to Mussoorie at 4 in evening, just at that time clouds started to cover Mussoorie, needless to say that view was breathtaking. We had lunch there, and I was bewildered once more to feel the clouds around me. Finally we left Mussoorie around 8 in evening I was at home at 11.30 seating with MOM with a cup of tea. I just went in the balcony and listened a motorbike whistling. That was the time when I realized that I am BACK to so call LIFE.